Jack Corbett and Alex met when Alex was dancing at Dollies
Playhouse in Washington Park, IL. She was the first to read and critique
Jack's novel, "Death on the Wild Side".
Later Jack published Alex's poetry through Nirvana Publishing at alphapro
Moon Tide
by *Alex*
March 1, 1999
I look toward the great black river
Across to the other side,
I touch the moon's silvery glitter......
As the water rushes by.
Gazing at my reflection,
Do I really like what I see?
I ask myself quietly.....
Is this all I'll ever be?
I feel a slight of breeze across my skin,
As I think back through the years,
To contemplate where it is.....
And what my life has been.
I'm alone with myself,
No others to intrude.....
I think of all my wealth,
And this lonely solitude.
Sometimes sad, woeful, or hell bent,
Happy, joyful or content.....
To shed my mask and clear the mind,
All I ask is this special time.
I'm searching for the light,
Just me, and the sounds of night.....
I'll shed the tears, replace the calm
As I've done before, to make me strong.
I go inside and off to bed,
The loss of turmoil in my head.
I hold you close, and snuggle tight.....
And sleep peacefully, throughout the night.
I wake to mornings warm sunlight,
Glowing on my face,
And basking in it's warmth.....
I know I'm in my place.
Stars
I talked to a star
One full night,
I asked, "How ya doing?",
He said, "alright!"
We talked of simple stuff,
The weather and things,
Surprised,
I look at the tear it brings,
I talked to my star,
He said, "I know you!
I've watched on high,
I know your wish....
The one to die"
I tell him it's not his business,
And I turn away,
Angry,
And wishing it was day!
I 've talked to the stars,
One by one,
They all say the same,
"Life can be fun".
I don't know what
They're holding out on me.
I got the feeling,
They knew my destiny.
I can't trust the human,
So I reach for a star,
While all inside me....
I fight my silent war!
Alex
Dedicated to Grandma
Jan.22, 1999
Food for Thought
I saw
an old couple at Burger King today
And they were
holding hands,
I wanted ask
out loud if they had been together all their lives
But watching
them,
I knew they
always had.
I felt
an overwhelming sense of grief
Knowing that
we'll never see the same
An overpowering
sense of hate,
For the disease
that gives you so much pain.
An immeasurable
sense of protection
To keep you
from the darkness
Keep the
faith
Please don't
die.
Alex
12/24/94
Pain
The sun stretches
out skinny, greedy fingers
Like a thief,
it steals away the moon,
I spend long,
lonely nights
Filled with
fear and doom.
As I stand
before a hateful world that couldn't care less,
Still for myself,
I strive to be the best----
So when the
world is crying,
I'll stand with
a smile.
I'll remember
my own past tears
It'll be their
pain for awhile.........
Fantasy
I want to go
to you with open arms,
Accept you in
with all your charm.
It's a dream
that can't come true,
How well I know
this feeling of blue
I want
to kiss you and hold you near,
Whisper sweet
words, low in your ear.
To love you
again like many times before,
Not quite the
same, but even more.
Just to
keep you, is what I wish from this time on,
Being together,
two as one.
Seizing a moment,
all the way,
Refusing to
acknowledge, the hell we'll pay.
Keeping
your heart, for my own,
Reaping the
fields, that we have sewn,
A dream, a lie,
it can't come true,
Oh, how well
I know, this feeling of blue
Alex
10-01-97
So, you
want to know about a dancer's life
Her dreams,
aspirations, religion, and the strife,
To find the
strength, to learn to survive,
To go the length,
and stay alive!
So, peek into
my world and look deep into my eyes,
See how cold,
can you see the lies....
Can you touch
the hurt, can you feel the pain,
always being
the flirt. always fighting to to stay sane.
So, you want
to know what it's like
to live with
the humiliation
All for the
money....
To satisfy your
fascination!
To lose your
dignity,
And to go on
trial,
To go the distance,
Just one more
mile!
So, how does
a dancer do it,
The energy,
the passion,
that goes in
a dance,
She's got something
to prove...
All due to her
own circumstance!
All due to circumstance",
Ended my last poem,
And "How does she do it?,
Let's see where
This lost soul comes from.
She's innocent and pure,
And the world awaits
This wondrous child,
That's only eight.
With imagination,
And a love for life,
A lesson soon learned,
Begins her strife.
She begins her journey,
A slap in the face,
Learning the world's filled
with malice and hate.
Building a wall,
Stone by stone,
No-one to teach her
That hitting is wrong.
A child of twelve
Lost and alone,
Wanting a love
To call her own.
She's battered and bruised,
Comes now her first tear,
as she gives her virginity
To a man she fears.
See this young woman
Who not knows love,
But agony and deception,
Like a wayward dove.
Afraid,
She's poised and full of grace,
But lack of security
Puts her on stage......
LONGING FOR ACCEPTANCE
Alex
Jan.12,1999
For Ashley.......
The house is
quiet, the kids are gone
A few minutes
of peace
Is that so wrong
We do
our best to raise them right
With morals
and manners
Before they
take flight
They're almost
grown now
They'll soon
leave our nest
They're bound
for college
We did our best
Except for one........
She's proud
and stubborn
She's beautiful
too,
The trouble
she's bound for
Makes us so
blue
She lies and
steals
And runs around
town
All hours of
night
We're up til
dawn
She's hangin'
with trash
She's been led
around
She's headed
for trouble
Our wonderful
angel
Has lost her
crown
So tell me please
To save my daughter
To keep from
jail
Why must she
put us
Through all
this hell
To save her
soul
And keep her
alive
This is our
worry
This is our
cry
Alex
Dec., 1998
CONSTANT FEELINGS OF FIRE FRAGMENTS OF SELF-CONSUMING DESIRE FRENZIED FANCY WILL HEART SCARS CEASE SHALLOW PROMISE OF LOVE AND PEACE SILVERED BOLT OF LIGHTENING MEMORIES LOST IN DESERT BENEDICTION LOVERS GHOSTLY NAKED PROMISES WHISPER A WOMAN'S HEARTACHES RECOGNITION REACHING OUTWARD TOWARD THE STARS AND CHANGING ME WITHIN SEEING MANY LIFETIMES DESIRING THE END.
